Struggling with life!

I'm really struggling at the moment with my final 2 cycles of chemotherapy being delayed slightly. It's kind of the last straw really. I turned 40 in September but the 2 things I'd arranged to celebrate both ended up being cancelled because of going through cancer treatment so it passed like any other day really. Then Christmas was affected too, now with this delay I'm starting to worry I won't have recovered fully from the side effects of chemotherapy and radiotherapy by the time we get married in September. The only thing keeping my brain distracted is pretty much the good omens fandom and the fics. The only positive from the delay in chemo is that I'll definitely be well enough to go watch macbeth in the cinema on Wednesday as I have had a massive crush on David Tennant for 20 years! Good Omens has also changed my feelings about Michael Sheen, I always thought he was a fantastic actor but now the crush is real! Sorry for the rant I just don't have anyone to talk to about things